Behind the Tracks: “Gotta Let It Go” and “You Left Me Low”
Behind the Tracks: “Gotta Let It Go” and “You Left Me Low”
The highs, the re-uploads, and everything in between.
Creating music is rarely a straight line—and for Benjamin, the road to releasing “Gotta Let It Go” and “You Left Me Low” was full of lessons, late-night second guesses, and a couple of re-uploads too many. These two tracks are a step forward for him—not just in sound, but in process.
Normally, he records everything in his bedroom, building tracks from scratch in a DIY setup. But this time was different. After putting together the beats at home, Benjamin actually went to a studio to record vocals, something he hadn’t done before. The vibe was different, the stakes were higher, and yeah—so was the pressure.
The two songs showcase different energies but share the same DNA: both were mixed entirely by Benjamin himself. And that’s where things got messy—in the most human way.
The Tracks
“You Left Me Low”
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This track is a moody, emotionally charged piece that leans into vulnerability. The vocals are raw, the beat is steady, and you can feel the exhaustion—not just in the lyrics, but in the delivery. And there’s a reason for that.
In his discussion video, “How I Re-Uploaded My 2 Latest Tracks 4 Times (and Ruined Everything)”, Benjamin talks about how he over-practiced the vocals the day before the studio session. His voice ended up sounding dry and raspy, which wasn’t the plan, but somehow worked in the context of the track’s tone. It’s one of those imperfections that accidentally becomes part of the vibe.
“Gotta Let It Go”
▶ Listen on YouTube
This one hits a bit harder—sonically and emotionally. It’s more layered, and Benjamin admits to heavily comping the vocals here—piecing together different takes to get the version he wanted. That’s something you might not notice as a listener, but behind the scenes, it took a lot of effort to stitch together that final performance.
The Re-Upload Spiral
If you’ve ever tried mixing your own tracks, you’ll get it: you finish a mix, upload it, and then bam—you suddenly think of five things you could’ve done differently.
That’s exactly what happened here.
Benjamin uploaded both tracks multiple times because he kept thinking of ways to tweak the mix—maybe side-chaining the synth to the vocal, maybe balancing vocal loudness more evenly. The ideas kept coming, and each time, he convinced himself the track would be “just a little better” if he made one more change.
But with every re-upload, he lost momentum. YouTube’s algorithm seemed to favor the first uploads—views were climbing; traction was building—but taking the tracks down for another mix buried that momentum. That’s where the regret comes in. In his own words, “I feel like I could have had somewhat viral tracks had I totally finished mixing them prior to the first upload and then just left them.”
That’s a tough pill for any indie artist—putting in the time, money, and energy only to watch the algorithm ghost your effort after round two (or three... or four).
The Bigger Picture
Still, not all was lost. The studio session, despite the vocal fatigue, was a good experience. Getting out of the bedroom studio and into a professional space added something different to the process. Even with all the ups and downs, Benjamin sounds proud of the final versions.
And that’s really what it comes down to. These tracks show growth—not just technically, but in self-awareness. Knowing when to stop tweaking, when to hit publish and walk away, is one of the hardest things for any creator to learn. But each project brings him closer to that balance.
So go check out the final versions:
🎧 “You Left Me Low” – https://youtu.be/Xl__1H1nMyg
🎧 “Gotta Let It Go” – https://youtu.be/IV1lv2Bqxrc
📹 And watch the behind-the-scenes breakdown: How I Re-Uploaded my 2 Latest Tracks 4 Times (and Ruined Everything)
Written by Amnah Riaz, who is available for hire on Upwork here:
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